So, today was pretty good. Kind of low key. I slept in and watched a little TV. After lunch I headed to campus for a meeting with my adviser and class. After class I met up with my friend, Fernandos.
He has been visiting me for the last week. He is heading home tomorrow and I must admit that I am kind of sad. It was really nice having someone, other than a family member, come and visit me. What is our relationship exactly? Just friends for now. I think that at this time we are both not really ready for a more intimate relationship. But I really like this starting things slow and really getting to know each other.
It will be interesting to see how our relationship evolves. Right now everything is new but we try to be as real with each other as possible. I am a super optimist so I'm sure that things will work out.
Although, I must say that I am working at trying to not put myself fully out there. I so easily fall. And I get hurt easily. I don't want to totally wall up my heart but I will work on being more cautious. We'll see how that goes.
On a lighter note... in my sociology class we talked about aging in US culture and the Professor asked how old is old. Someone shouted "Thirty!" I was a little taken back. I don't think thirty is old. But that may be because I am thirty. And I guess to a twenty-one year old thirty is old. I do know that when I was younger I totally thought I would be more accomplished before my twenty-fifth birthday. But we see how that went. I wanted marriage, two kids, and a career. I didn't get married for at least another year, I have no kids, and well... a career? I'm in school for that now. It's funny how things change. How reality can really kick your butt.
I have a totally new perspective and new goals for my future. Get out of debt. Live somewhere that makes me happy. Find my true home. Travel outside the US. Kids? Sure why not. But I'm not really in a rush. And I actually don't mind adopting, if that's what I'm going to have to do. Marriage? Probably not, unless I find that AMAZING guy.
I just want to live life. My life. I am so done with living to make other people happy. Doing that made me miserable. And I think that my thirties will be my time of self discovery. I'm really excited for this period of my life and I can't wait to see how it all works out.
Till another day....
He has been visiting me for the last week. He is heading home tomorrow and I must admit that I am kind of sad. It was really nice having someone, other than a family member, come and visit me. What is our relationship exactly? Just friends for now. I think that at this time we are both not really ready for a more intimate relationship. But I really like this starting things slow and really getting to know each other.
It will be interesting to see how our relationship evolves. Right now everything is new but we try to be as real with each other as possible. I am a super optimist so I'm sure that things will work out.
Although, I must say that I am working at trying to not put myself fully out there. I so easily fall. And I get hurt easily. I don't want to totally wall up my heart but I will work on being more cautious. We'll see how that goes.
On a lighter note... in my sociology class we talked about aging in US culture and the Professor asked how old is old. Someone shouted "Thirty!" I was a little taken back. I don't think thirty is old. But that may be because I am thirty. And I guess to a twenty-one year old thirty is old. I do know that when I was younger I totally thought I would be more accomplished before my twenty-fifth birthday. But we see how that went. I wanted marriage, two kids, and a career. I didn't get married for at least another year, I have no kids, and well... a career? I'm in school for that now. It's funny how things change. How reality can really kick your butt.
I have a totally new perspective and new goals for my future. Get out of debt. Live somewhere that makes me happy. Find my true home. Travel outside the US. Kids? Sure why not. But I'm not really in a rush. And I actually don't mind adopting, if that's what I'm going to have to do. Marriage? Probably not, unless I find that AMAZING guy.
I just want to live life. My life. I am so done with living to make other people happy. Doing that made me miserable. And I think that my thirties will be my time of self discovery. I'm really excited for this period of my life and I can't wait to see how it all works out.
Till another day....
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